Another post today, because I know I won’t be able to post anything tomorrow. Not because of all the plans for tonight, but because I’m a little too busy, neglecting homework, and some household chores, which really need to be done. Today I managed to do some of them such as developping two films from the Nash concert yesterday, buying presents for december 5th, do the dishes and do some washing. That may sound like some work, and it is, it’s not a lot of work when you’re able to see what still needs to be done. Such as cleaning my two rooms, three other rooms, the bathroom and finally the kitchen and toilet *sigh. Besides cleaning there more laundry to be done and, oh yeah that too, homework, because I really need to get going to finish my bachelor by January.
But let’s leave all this for now. I’m quite surprised I can still write sinterklaasverses quite easily. I was definately not looking forward to writing them because, well, because I’m, once again, not really happy with the way things are going. And when I feel that way it usually means I have a lot of inspiration to write poems and verses, but not positive energy. Since I’m writing these poems for other people I don’t want to feelt hem with my despair and emotions. For now I’ll just keep everything for myself, maybe write something which I’ll keep private/won’t attach it to one of the presents, just so I can get the feeling out of my system and let the paper deal with it instead of me.
With only an hour to go before I’m going to head for Utrecht (second day of Le Guess Who 2007) I’m just going to ignore certain feelings and keep myself busy doing things, put my energy into usefull things. No, int his case feelings don’t count as something usefull, more as something which blocks me from doing the things I want to do, or enjoy the things I want to enjoy. So working hard makes me ignore everything, and just pretending positive feelings also seems to work. Freaky eh? Fooling myself and even falling for it…
Anyway I’ll just keep fooling myself for a few moments. I’ll be leaving in an hour to party in Utrecht till about 10pm, at which I have to head back to Gouda to get changed, give my cats some attention, maybe eat a little, and then head towards so What where I have to work for the night. So bye for now all!
